My Story Usha Rainer from India

I Mrs. Ruth Usha Paul Rainer from India, Maharashtra state, lives in Aurangabad.

I’m saved by the grace of Jesus Christ my Lord and my God. I came from a Hindu background.At the age of 5 years, my grandmother taught me to worship snake as a god. In my first grade, I had a poem describing God’s beautiful nature, sun, moon and stars. I would think, how beautiful are all these created things! Then the Creator God must be very beautiful. At the age seven, I once entered the inner room of a Hindu temple, where our village’s deity (a big & tall stone statue) was kept.

Women were forbidden to enter. When I first saw that big giant idol, it was fearful and seeing this god I was disappointed. How can a beautiful God be like this? Who then would be the Creator God? Moreover, I had many questions about God. After visiting that temple, I started having dreams with big snakes daily. We’d celebrate all Indian festivals & I’d participate in all heathen worship. That year I brought one human skull from the cemetery. I’d see all magic shows in our village. Once I was made as a goddess in a play, after which I fell sick. Since we had school only up to seventh (standard) in my village,

I was put in a Hindu boarding school for my higher education. Being far away from my parents, I decided to be nice: I even tried to burn a mark on my forearm, that when I’d see the scar, I’d remember to be good. But Alas! My decision didn’t last even a week. I felt very sad cause I wanted to be good, but couldn’t. I started thinking seriously. If I couldn’t make myself good, then only God can. But which god will make me good? At that time, I was worshipping many gods.

Then I thought, there must be a True and Living God, who can wash me from within and make me a good person. So I started praying like this: “O True and Living God, whoever you may be, give me an inner bath, wash me from within, so I will be good. I’ve tried to be good but have failed.” I prayed this prayer for almost five years. Many times I’d think(of washing), if I washed my intestines with soap and water (to be)then I’d be clean within. I worshipped idols daily and would spend time in Hindu temples.

After I stood first in my high school final exam, I took admission in a college and in a Hindu hostel. But by then, my all thoughts became unclean; I wanted clean and holy thoughts. I tried my best to have clean thoughts but all my attempts of a pure heart failed. Then I prayed more earnestly to an idol saying, “Please give me pure & holy thoughts”. But I did not get any holiness. Then I stopped all prayers and accepted atheism. But I had no peace, nor happiness. After consulting a fortune teller and believing the horoscope, I concluded my life as useless. And life without a God is hopeless. These thoughts led me to commit suicide. But then by God’s grace, I heard about Jesus on 20thDec1974, through Laymen’s Evangelical Fellowship International.

For the first time I experienced God speaking to me. I heard Jeremiah 4:14 & 13:27. I understood that Jesus came to clean me from within and give me true joy & peace and God knows all about me and is asking me to clean my heart from all evil. I prayed, “Lord Jesus, I know I am a great sinner”. The day following I bought a Bible and was reading it & prayed to Jesus to forgive all my sins. I gave my heart to Jesus. Praise God! Jesus came in my life, He forgave all my sins. God spoke & assured me that I am His daughter. He enabled me to ask pardon from whomsoever I had wronged. I restituted all my thefts; cleansed my conscience before God & men and received assurance of salvation through Isaiah 44:22. Praise The Lord, He redeemed me! My dirty thoughts had gone, I got a clean heart filled with peace and joy. The Bible became sweet to me and I’ve read it 42 times until now.

In 1975 in a vision, Lord Jesus visited me and said, “Follow me.” As per God’s will in 1982 I resigned my Government job and went for Bible training. By God’s grace, I got back the job. I married Paul Rainer in1989; we have two daughters. We serve the Lord as a family.

In 1992, when I was on the operation table for a C-section and was serious. There I saw a vision of Jesus whose height reached up to the sky and His breadth filled the earth, and I was just a tiny dot standing there. I was amazed to see our great God. He made me understand that all humans are nothing before Him. Then I heard His voice, “I care for you.” I know my heavenly Father is the caring God.

In 1996 I had the vision to serve God in a new place. Therefore we moved from Mumbai to Aurangabad as self-supporting missionaries. The Lord Jesus healed me of my severe pulmonary hypertension in 2014.
I was praying for the Lord’s leading in Bible study and found the CLI website. My husband Rainer and I started studying the Bible through CLI. We praise God for this study; I learned about God’s greatness, His love, doctrine of Godhead, Church History, Theology lessons and I liked them all.

About 50 to 70 people come to our 2nd-floor house church in an apartment. I take the Bible study & my husband preaches. We need a place for worship on the ground floor. Please pray that we may remain faithful to God until the end. Thanks for free education at CLI.

I Mrs. Ruth Usha Paul Rainer from India, Maharashtra state, lives in Aurangabad.

I’m saved by the grace of Jesus Christ my Lord and my God. I came from a Hindu background.At the age of 5 years, my grandmother taught me to worship snake as a god. In my first grade, I had a poem describing God’s beautiful nature, sun, moon and stars. I would think, how beautiful are all these created things! Then the Creator God must be very beautiful. At the age seven, I once entered the inner room of a Hindu temple, where our village’s deity (a big & tall stone statue) was kept. Women were forbidden to enter. When I first saw that big giant idol, it was fearful and seeing this god I was disappointed. How can a beautiful God be like this? Who then would be the Creator God?

Moreover, I had many questions about God. After visiting that temple, I started having dreams with big snakes daily. We’d celebrate all Indian festivals & I’d participate in all heathen worship. That year I brought one human skull from the cemetery. I’d see all magic shows in our village. Once I was made as a goddess in a play, after which I fell sick. Since we had school only up to seventh (standard) in my village, I was put in a Hindu boarding school for my higher education. Being far away from my parents, I decided to be a good girl: I even tried to burn a mark on my forearm, that when I’d see the scar, I’d remember to be good. But Alas! My decision didn’t last even a week. I felt very sad cause I wanted to be good, but couldn’t. I started thinking seriously. If I couldn’t make myself good, then only God can. But which god will make me good? At that time, I was worshipping many gods.

Then I thought, there must be a True and Living God, who can wash me from within and make me a good person. So I started praying like this: “O True and Living God, whoever you may be, give me an inner bath, wash me from within, so I will be good. I’ve tried to be good but have failed.” I prayed this prayer for almost five years. Many times I’d think(of washing), if I washed my intestines with soap and water (to be)then I’d be clean within. I worshipped idols daily and would spend time in Hindu temples.

After I stood first in my high school final exam, I took admission in a college and in a Hindu hostel. But by then, my all thoughts became unclean; I wanted clean and holy thoughts. I tried my best to have clean thoughts but all my attempts of a pure heart failed. Then I prayed more earnestly to an idol saying, “Please give me pure & holy thoughts”. But I did not get any holiness. Then I stopped all prayers and accepted atheism. But I had no peace, nor happiness. After consulting a fortune teller and believing the horoscope, I concluded my life as useless. And life without a God is hopeless. These thoughts led me to commit suicide. But then by God’s grace, I heard about Jesus on 20thDec1974, through Laymen’s Evangelical Fellowship International. For the first time I experienced God speaking to me. I heard Jeremiah 4:14 & 13:27.

I understood that Jesus came to clean me from within and give me true joy & peace and God knows all about me and is asking me to clean my heart from all evil. I prayed, “Lord Jesus, I know I am a great sinner”. The day following I bought a Bible and was reading it & prayed to Jesus to forgive all my sins. I gave my heart to Jesus. Praise God! Jesus came in my life, He forgave all my sins. God spoke & assured me that I am His daughter. He enabled me to ask pardon from whomsoever I had wronged. I restituted all my thefts; cleansed my conscience before God & men and received assurance of salvation through Isaiah 44:22. Praise The Lord, He redeemed me! My dirty thoughts had gone, I got a clean heart filled with peace and joy. The Bible became sweet to me and I’ve read it 42 times until now.

In 1975 in a vision, Lord Jesus visited me and said, “Follow me.” As per God’s will in 1982 I resigned my Government job and went for Bible training. By God’s grace, I got back the job. I married Paul Rainer in1989; we have two daughters. We serve the Lord as a family.

In 1992, when I was on the operation table for a C-section and was serious. There I saw a vision of Jesus whose height reached up to the sky and His breadth filled the earth, and I was just a tiny dot standing there. I was amazed to see our great God. He made me understand that all humans are nothing before Him. Then I heard His voice, “I care for you.” I know my heavenly Father is the caring God.

In 1996 I had the vision to serve God in a new place. Therefore we moved from Mumbai to Aurangabad as self-supporting missionaries. The Lord Jesus healed me of my severe pulmonary hypertension in 2014.
I was praying for the Lord’s leading in Bible study and found the CLI website. My husband Rainer and I started studying the Bible through CLI. We praise God for this study; I learned about God’s greatness, His love, doctrine of Godhead, Church History, Theology lessons and I liked them all.

About 50 to 70 people come to our 2nd-floor house church in an apartment. I take the Bible study & my husband preaches. We need a place for worship on the ground floor. Please pray that we may remain faithful to God until the end. Thanks for free education at CLI.